“Filter the doubt away :)”

Happy Hug A Singaporean Day (:

Posted by: Xun Ning on: December 5, 2009

I don’t think anyone truly realises how much I do love singing, no matter what they think of my voice. No one sees me when I do fully let go, when I’m alone in the house, so I can’t blame them for judging it.

But you know, today I successfully auditioned for something. I GOT IN. The audition was so long ago I thought for sure I hadn’t gotten in again. But today I got the email :D Like omg. This has been such a good month and a bit. Like, Nanowrimo, then this. It’s crazy. But YES. YES. YES. It’s not a very big thing, or part, it’s just the chorus, but you know, I GOT IN.

Today’s also been a good day overall. I finished some of my Criminal Law essay due on Monday & we had 2 for 1s in Pizza Express and it was awesome. 10 pizzas between 8 people. X had like 17 slices. Crazy.

E got to meet a couple of my new friends and it was fun :D I love uni. I love these new people, even though it’s only just beginning. <3 Haha I guess it’s a good thing, but I’m finding myself becoming more and more easily satisfied/made happy as time goes on. As if growing up’s just made me less picky, or just easier to appease.

P.S. It’s snowing again on wp! I’m so tempted to change the layout so it’s more obvious, but you know. I like this layout. Hahaha.

Posted by: Xun Ning on: December 3, 2009

So, I’ve met this guy, who says that love is what makes life, Life.

Last night, I met this other guy, who lives his life to serve Jesus Christ.

They happen to know each other, even though me meeting the second guy was completely random.

Anyway I was thinking, isn’t that essentially the same thing?

Devoting your life to believing in love vs devoting your life to believing in all your God’s done to redeem your sins.

I mean, I don’t really see the distinction. They’re both intangible manifestations of goodwill and positivity and belief.

And essentially, you could say that believing in Jesus Christ boils down also to love (given that He did all He did out of love), which in turn, you know, makes the world go round.

REALLY?

Posted by: Xun Ning on: November 29, 2009

To everyone I was talking to online last night (or 2am this morning), you would know this already, but CHECK THIS OUT:


Which officially makes me this:

and this:

:D :D :D *clapclap!*

Because dreams DO come true.

& if you haven’t gathered by now, I shall be shameless and say out right: I WANT THIS.

Wahahaha.

I can’t believe I’ve done this, especially without falling behind in work, or having to miss any other commitments. I remember Chloe and I trying to do it back in Lower Sixth, when there wasn’t nearly as much stuff to do. & like, this is crazy. It started off really slow, I was just rambling, completely directionless, then I remembered this vague idea from P6, and now here it is! That’s nuts la. It still needs a lot of work, but now the rough draft is done…it’s like. Ahhh. AHHH.

I’ve just written my first novel, and I can’t stress how much this actually means to me, it’s been something I’ve been wanting to do since I was like, 9. Story of everyone’s life, really. But now I’ve done it. I’m not saying it’s any good, it still needs a lot of work before it’s anything even akin to good, but it’s done.There for all the world to see.

NANOWRIMO <3

MLIG, Pay it Forward

Posted by: Xun Ning on: November 28, 2009

So I’ve been quite a frequent visitor on MLIG recently, and came across this:

“Today, I was hitchiking up to a mountain to go snowboarding and a middleaged man in a jeep picked me up. We talked about how finances should never stop you from doing what you want and believe in (me being quite limited in that area). As I walked away he called me back over, said good luck, and handed me $100, then disappeared. There is hope for random acts of kindness. Pay it forward. MLIG

#31179 Comments: 0  Vote:  Great 127  Good 9″

When I first found it I read through about 5 pages and got really excited and happy with all the love and the hope and the faith and the unicorns. A couple of days and ten or so visits later, the sameness of it all struck me, and I kind of began to wonder about how everyone could get caught up in such seemingly small, trivial things. I guess I kind of just got used to the same old stories being repeated over and over again in varying styles. Then I realised I was being stupidly cynical, and it isn’t like those people are being dramatic, they just wanted to celebrate whatever they were feeling in that moment. Which is a massively good thing, because I think people should always celebrate how they are feeling if they want to. (Having said that though, it also struck me how many of those posts are about people being pretty or having boyfriends (or girlfriends) or about being fat. Maybe it’s because most of the people who approve for/vote for the posts are people of the same mindset of thinking about ugliness/prettiness as a large part of the definition of yourself, or maybe it’s because getting a compliment about your looks puts most people (who post on MLIG) on an immediate natural high, but I guess I’m discovering again how important appearances can be to people. Sorry, I’m rambling.)

Anyway I read the one above, and the “pay it forward” struck me. I remember reading something about it or watching a film to do with it, but yeah. I just wanted to put this here to remind myself about one of the things I used to keep close to my heart but completely forgot about. These past couple of weeks since starting uni have sort of seen the start of a resolution I never actually told myself I’d expressly keep, but rather, it was one I keep remembering whenever random situations arise, and I guess the story above just reminded me about it. It’s strange, because I never thought I’d remember to do these things for self-improvement unless I wrote it down or promised myself to do them or something.

P.S. Contract essay down, 7000 words to go. COME ON <3

Listssss

Posted by: Xun Ning on: November 28, 2009

So, says my current Criminal Law lecturer: “…I’d suggest you listen up well when *this other lecturer* talks about *this new act* because he basically wrote it.” to the sound of applause and laughter.

I love the fact that we get taught by such current tutors who are actually involved in the laws we are studying and obviously know what they’re talking, but at the same time, the person this guy’s talking about? He’s a rubbish lecturer. Hahah

That’s not very interesting, sorry. But it’s 5.53 pm, so far today, I have, not necessarily in the right order:

1) cleaned my brother’s + my room
2) had lunch
3) woke up at 12pm (o.O granted, I’ve been sleeping between 2 & 3 every day this week)
4) worked out my budget again
5) almost-done customisingd my new school bag from my bro ^^
6) have 7000 words to go, and realised it takes me about 40 minutes to write 2000 words if I’m not so tired that creative writing takes effort, which is NUTS.
7) showered
8) done laundry
9) typed up + vaguely started planning Contract Law essay, to find I don’t know what I’m talking about.

Honoes, I need to stop waking up at noon. & you do realise #1-8 was procratsination, right?

10) wrote this entry.

You & I

Posted by: Xun Ning on: November 27, 2009

14 000 words to go. It’s manageable. I guess the ultimate aim would be to finish it all today, but it’s alright, spread out over 2 days. But omg. COME ON. I want to win this year. (I also want a winner’s t-shirt!!)

But anyway, because I’m stuck for inspiration, I have 3 statements (: Oh maaan, I haven’t done these in a while. Just that this plotline seems to be completely based on people I know, like some are just one person in character, other are based on different bits of people mashed together. It just makes me think of the people I know a lot,  especially when the characters are based on people I’ve just met. It’s fun ^^

1. Yeah I’ve just met you, and we hang out occassionally, kind of whenever we’re in school together and we see each other around. We sit next to each other in lectures when neither of us are late, but that doesn’t happen very often. You come up with the most random things, and tell me completely unrelated things about your day, and it’s hilarious. You’re part of one of the main people in the story and you’ll probably know who you are, because some of our conversations are actually built into theirs.  & I wasn’t sure what to make of you at the start, we didn’t really have much to talk about until you started telling me random things. But even now you still manage to surprise me all the time (ok la it hasn’t been that long), and maybe that’s just me being thick, but you know.

2. Every time I write about you, I think of your name instead of the character’s and then new ideas pop into my head. Hahaha it’s brilliant. Up till now I’m still not very sure what you’re doing in the plot. As in, you’re quite important to it, but I don’t know how you help to further it yet. That makes no sense. I guess we have another 14 000 words to wait and see, right? xD You’d probably recognise yourself too. I couldn’t actualy figure you out when I first met you like 2 months ago, I still can’t, and that kind of found its way into the story. You’ll know who you are, if you or anyone else ever gets to read it.

3. You, and everyone else who knows you in the slightest, will know that there’s one of the main guy characters was inspired by you. Well, at least, he’s got one of your character traits. The way you walk. It’s hilarious, I’ve told you this on a number of occassions, I think yo’uve gotten used to me being directly honest to you now. Our views always completely clash, you think one thing and I think the other, and we don’t ever seem to agree unless it’s actually course-related. But yeah. That’s part of the fun, even if you do drive me insane sometimes, trying so hard to get through to you I’ve stopped exercising whatever little tact I have. Haha I wonder why you still want to remain friends with me, man. We’ll give it some more time. xD

14 000 WORDS. COME ON.

WOOO

Posted by: Xun Ning on: November 25, 2009

I DON’T THINK THIS NOVEL CAN BE FINISHED IN 50 000 WORDS :O

& I WILL update you at some point about the legend that is INGRID MICHAELSON + GREG LASWELL LIVE. Lyk syrsly.

!!!!!

Crazy week this week.

WRIMO SPAM

Posted by: Xun Ning on: November 22, 2009

Being a religious wordcount updater, CHECK THIS OUT TODAY’S WORDCOUNT (it’s actually just one day but I updated past midnight so it’s spread over 2 days. Meh.):

Plus I finished my Public Law essay = WIN (:

Out of Words

Posted by: Xun Ning on: November 19, 2009

30 000 words. 2 seminar preps. 40+ pages of reading. 6 (?) cases. 2 essays, and counting. Caselists. Exam revision prep. I am SO behind.

Come on, wrimo. Make this dream come true.

Choking on Concrete

Posted by: Xun Ning on: November 15, 2009

Old news on the Youtubes, but this boy made it onto Private Practice.

& I had the song on repeat months and months and months ago. <3